Have you ever watched a car drive away until it disappeared from your line of sight? I have-- countless times. In fact, I've done this since I was a kid-- I (toddler Jessie) would watch my mom from the window as she packed her work things in her car, pull out of the driveway and leave for work. I would wave frantically to her until the car, and her, were completely out of my sight. Ever since I began doing this, I can't help but feel as though the person I'm watching drive away is still with me, as they were when I just gave them a hug goodbye. However, when the car gets out of my sight, it all hits me at once and I feel truly alone. My stomach drops and I always wish there was a rewind button somewhere that I could press, allowing me to relive the time I just spent with that person.
Chances are, you don't really know me that well. Honestly, you probably don't know me at all. But the goal if this blog is so that people get to know not just me, but themselves. If you or anyone else who might read this can even slightly relate to the crazy things I'm saying-- we can avoid the "alone" feeling. It always helps to know that someone else out there is feeling the same way you are at times.
So what does "49 DAYS: goodbyes and desperate waving" mean? Well, I graduated from high school, a world I knew and pretty much loved, on May 25, 2010 (a little over a month ago). And in 49 DAYS (now the title comes in...) I will be leaving for school. This means for the first time in my life I will be leaving my family and loved ones behind.I talk about the waving because each time I wave goodbye to a family member or my boyfriend, I realize that I will only be doing that-- If I'm lucky-- 49 more times. I have 49 times left to be able to sleep in my own room and wakeup to my wonderful parents every morning. I have 49 times left to be able to kiss and hug my boyfriend every night. Sure, I will have these things again when I return home for school breaks, but life will change as I know it, as it will change for the rest of my college-bound classmates. I figured that if I started this blog and recorded my thoughts after each and every day I have left of summertime, I can live more days to the best of my ability. I will make sure that I do everything I want to and leave the greatest impressions on everyone in my life before I cannot see them nearly as frequently as I do now.
This blog is my travel diary through time. The length of the journey, as it stands today, is 49 days. Please join me as I attempt to prepare for my world to change drastically.With best hopes for your future,
Jess
